The Beans are six months old today and my God, what a whirlwind.
The last six months have been the most challenging of my entire life. Hubs and I have been absolutely amazed at how much energy and work these two little humans require. Every day, we’re just totally overwhelmed with how much we love them, but we’re also overwhelmed with the energy it takes to care for them combined with his very demanding med school on call schedule and my own demanding business.
Each night we try to go to bed at the same time, and we’re totally wiped out but we also have some quiet moments to talk about the adorable things they did that day or what could have gone better.
Some of the most amazing and challenging things I’ve dealt with over the last six months include breastfeeding the twins, which I actually really enjoyed for the 4.5 months that I did it. It was a rough start with their NICU time, and it took Beanette 7 weeks of her life to actually make it happen, but I persisted and tried and towards the end I was feeding them at the same time, and it was an amazing thing to be able to do – one that I’ll never have the opportunity to do again. I want to thank hubs for his support of me in this. At two months, I really wanted to stop. I actually told him I was going to, then I went and took a shower and cried the whole time because I was so sad. When I got out, he gave me a big hug and said that doesn’t sound like someone who wants to stop. Come on, I’ll get you a big glass of water, and you can try again. And then I went on to do it for 2.5 more months.
It was also challenging to deal with their reflux by myself in the house all day. I called my parents – again crying – (kind of a theme here, lol!) saying I just couldn’t do it anymore. I’d burp one and they’d projectile vomit everywhere and then I’d take the other one and deal with the same thing. It seemed to go on for weeks and weeks, and after tons of different medicines and other techniques they finally just…. stopped.
Moving across the country when they were 5 weeks old and then spending months and months trying to get settled and get the house together was extremely stressful too.
But through it all, we’re here. My kids are flourishing. My son is a whopping 19 pounds, and my daughter a delicate 13 pounds. They are so unique and different and amazing.
I am a mom to twins. Twins who are half a year old. And I’m so proud to be able to say that.
Thank you to everyone for your support over the last 6 months, the bloggers who helped me during my maternity leave, the readers who supported me, and especially my April 2014 Twins group who made me laugh and let me know every day that I’m not alone.
Below is my birth video – Don’t worry, nothing super scary or bloody – just a gorgeous compilation by the very talented Joy at Cher Bebe Birth Stories that we will cherish forever.